Ok so I realized today several things that I could share that might make me make more sense to some of you…especially in regards to migraines and pain:
1. When I have a migraine my eyes become very sensitive to light, but here's the exciting part: I can't close them because that adds pressure and makes it worse.
2. Migraines also cause sensitivity to sound, but wearing earplugs adds pressure somehow and makes it worse…but they’d make it worse anyways because then I can hear myself breathing and I sound like Darth Vader.
3. Emotional pain can be fairly easy to hide but physical pain is usually not! People who don’t know what’s going on or who don’t understand expect me to be normal and I try really hard to act normal but sometimes I can’t because it hurts too much.
4. Random fact stuck here in the middle for no real reason…showers are painful…the water is loud…shampooing my hair hurts my head…standing for that long makes my feet and legs tired…if I’m freezing with several layers of clothing on, do you think it gets any better with fewer layers? Haha…no!
5. Distractions are currently my best friends because if I can get my mind off the pain for a little while I’ll have more energy to fight it whenever I get to the point where I can’t get the pain to stay off my mind anymore.
6. Meals drain so much of my energy that I have to drive back to the dorm afterwards.
7. It doesn’t matter if I get 3, 8, 12, or even 16 hours of sleep…when I wake up I probably be fine for about 2 hours and then I’ll be ready to crash again for another 3, 8, 12, or even 16 hours of sleep.
8. I’ve been having trouble making it to class lately because I tend to wake up in the morning with terrible nausea which I’m guessing is either from the CM or from one of my meds…oh the joys of side effects which tend to affect everything not just my sides…haha.
9. Another thing that people either don’t understand or ignore is that when I have a migraine if anything so much as brushes my head it feels like a knife slicing my head open and when people bump it or intentionally touch it, it hurts so bad…I can’t even explain how bad it hurts because it’s such a bizarre type of pain.
10. I guess another thing would be that right now pain is the main thing on my mind but it’s definitely not the only thing I’ve struggled with and some things I’ve been trying to share on here but there are still others that I may not necessarily want to talk about but I definitely appreciate prayer for those unspoken struggles too…in addition to the pain struggles.
Ok so I didn’t expect to come up with 10 but once I reached 9 I figured that I might as well even it up. I don’t really have a lot more to say…I currently have a bad headache and a lot of shoulder and back pain…if you wanted the most up-to-date status about Beth which by the time you read this will be already out-of-date…haha! Alrighty well, I go to yet another doctor next week and then I go to Cleveland Clinic the week after next so I’ll be updating you all again soon.
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