why?

So I’ve been in a lot of pain today and yesterday and pretty much all of break and have been struggling with why I have to go through this. No, I haven’t come to any conclusions about it but I figured that I owed you all an update on how my break has gone. It’s gone surprisingly better than I expected and some kinks in my life were finally smoothed out and yet the pain lingers...like a constant reminder…that life will never be perfect…to trust God…that I’m not any better than anyone else…and the list of reminders goes on and on. But the first two are the ones I want to focus on…life will never be perfect and trust God. Everyone already knows that life will never be perfect but I’m pretty sure that not as many people think of chronic pain as a reminder to trust God. I had a hard time with the concept of trusting God while living with pain that doesn’t go away…I mean I still sometimes struggle with it but it’s getting better…the learning to trust part is getting better I mean. I still don’t understand why nor do I think that I ever will completely but hopefully someday I’ll understand a little bit better. Ok well this is about all the typing my head can handle and I’m falling asleep on my laptop, but I’ll just have to wait it out another 30 minutes so that I can take more pills that hopefully will help with my headache. Thanks for the prayers…but keep praying!
Happy New Year!