I came home for just an overnight thing two Friday nights in a row the last of which was the last day of classes and the beginning of the weekend before finals. The 2nd weekend my nerves started getting to me and they continued from then on until now. I did manage to survive finals week and just found out tonight that I only failed 2 of my 5 classes most of which I thought I’d probably failed; I got a B, two C’s, and two F’s. I also found out tonight that my grades this semester didn’t seem to affect my GPA much. I also wanted to mention that I passed all of my Psychology classes so that will look good on my record. I would like to point out that this semester has been incredibly challenging so the grades I received are pretty good considering the circumstances. Also random story, during finals I was so tired just like I always am and was in the AEC taking my very last exam and I fell asleep and slept for probably 30-45 minutes before the lady came and woke me up to make sure I hadn’t passed out and so that I could finish. That particular prof had given me no time limit so I had no trouble finishing the test, but I was rather sleep deprived and found the incident incredibly hilarious. Anyways, I am still very thankful that I did as well as I did in my classes, because even though my grades aren’t amazing, I still couldn’t have done even that well without God’s help, strength, and faithfulness; and I praise Him for it.
When I moved back home for the summer, we started out packing up in my roomie’s and my room but soon had to start loading the car and my poor mother loaded most of it herself with a little bit of help from another Room #5 girl (who happened to live directly above us) while it rained the whole time. I wasn’t much help for the loading part but I tried to help with the packing part as well as the unpacking the latter of which I was much more successful with. Thankfully, I am now pretty much unpacked at least as far as the things I will be needing in the next few weeks which is a praise in itself.
Now onto how I feel about surgery…well, my stomach’s been in knots since May 15th or 16th and that’s been annoying and it’s getting worse now. We leave tomorrow night for Cleveland, Ohio, and then pre-op testing starts on Thursday following another appointment with my surgeon. The surgery itself will be on Friday sometime but we won’t know when exactly until Thursday so, unless I update this between now and then, just pray all day Friday, May 28th and then we’ll be good. I’m really nervous about surgery, but I’ve given it to God and I know He has it all under control, so I think this is just a power struggle; I want to be in control and yet I want God to take care of it and I know He will.
This reminds me of something that happened the 1st of the 2 last times that I came home which were mentioned previously in this. I was cleaning out one of my dresser drawers and came across 2 wristbands which I had known about but had misplaced a while ago. One of them is orange and the other is lime green; well the orange one was the one that I was kind of wondering if I could find because I had liked it and I knew that the green one was with it so obviously when I found one I found the other one as well. Well, last year spring semester one of my friends from Room #5, who is now my roommate, had given me a verse because I was struggling with a lot of emotional issues and that verse is: Joshua 1:9, “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.” I happened to read the whole chapter recently since I have been ready through Joshua during my devotions and I noticed that God tells Joshua 4 times in just that 1st chapter to “be strong and courageous.” Having read and remembered all that, I found the orange wristband and was looking at and low and behold the imprinted word on it is COURAGE! I looked at it and pretty much said, “Okay God, I get it!” It was kind of like with Joshua when God told him to “be strong and courageous” because God pretty much told me point blank through different sources to “be strong and courageous,” but if you read the whole verse you’ll notice that God actually says, “Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.” Not only does God tell us to face our trouble courageously but He also tells us that He will be with us wherever we go. He’s kind of saying something like “be strong and courageous because I’m with you and I’m backing you up 100%.” Anyways, all of this was really encouraging to me because I’ve been so nervous about having my head cut open so-to-speak and I’ve really felt like God’s been telling me to be brave and strong because He’s in control of everything and that surgery and everything will be okay according to Him of course.
So to those who encouraged me with the verse Joshua 1:9, thanks for listening to God’s prompting and sharing that verse with me; it means a lot to me and I’m very serious when I say that because it has been such an encouragement to me!
Ok well, I think this is enough for now, I need to go finish up a couple of things, pack, and sleep so I’d better get going. More later…when Beth’s friend comes out and sings a silly song…and then lets you all know how I’m doing.
Prayer requests:
- SURGERY
- my sanity
- for our trip out to Cleveland because my mom and I are going out 1st, then my brother and his girlfriend are coming out 2nd, then my friend who lives at my house is coming out 3rd, and my mom’s brother and his wife are coming out sometime as well…so traveling mercies for all of us traveling
- for my head to stop hurting for even just a little while
Praises:
- that I have such a large group of friends and family who are coming with me for moral support
- that I didn’t fail all my classes
- that God’s in control!
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